today....

What has happened today....

Woke up with a Charlie Horse....

Got the monsters up (letting Daddy sleep in) had juice and peanut butter sandwiches

looked at pictures on facebook where Leon identified his sister as 'Baby Delilah' in a picture from when she was a baby. :)

They are currently looking at papers that I need to trash and saying things like 'That's so fun ny' (Delilah) and taking my foil and saying 'but i roll it roll it roll it' as he is rolling it out like he's so proud of himself, of course that one is Leon. 

These too crack me up with their hilarious comments to each other...they are super entergetic which means I might be leaving later to go work on lesson plans at the school which I really really don't want to do. Maybe I'll just go work in our bedroom. :)

Leon just sat down to read and Delilah is crying because she wants to read but Leon has the book she wants. Even moments like this are so funny to me because once I told her to read with Leon she scoots closer and starts 'reading' with him...and now she has it and he told her 'now you READ THE BOOK! READ THE BOOK!' 

oh....twins....

my life lately....

So, I've been meaning to get on here and write but haven't had the chance.

So, last night my monsters were playing in my bed and when it was time to bed I didn't want them to leave, but Leon HATES to have anything else in  his bed with him, so I let Delilah stay in the bed with me...they have NEVER slept with us in our bed...but when they were little they would only sleep on us on the couch. She flipped over and curled up with me and sacked out. :) It was awesome! I loved cuddling with my princess. At one point I turned on the lamp and she woke up. I quickly turned it off and told her 'sorry' and then kissed her and said 'I love you' she rolled over, looked at me, said 'I love you too', kissed me, and then went back to sleep. Happiest night of my life!

Then this morning,  I woke her up at 6:45am to head over to a fellow teacher's garage sale. We headed over there and helped out from 7:30 until about 1 this afternoon. Delilah had a  blast and I scored some super cute clothes for Courtney!

Today also marks our 6-month wedding anniversary. I'm madly in love with him after over 5 years of being together. He's an amazing man and life with him gets better every day. He is the source of my calmness and patience. He helps me on my most horrible days and helps me make sense of everything in my life. Thank you, Michael for all the wonderful moments so far....I can't wait to have million more. I love you!

my dream

So...I tend to have the weirdest dreams randomly. I find them amusing and sometimes disturbingly real. Here's the one from last night.

Michael and I were taking pictures because we were going out. I told him to take pictures of my hair because I thought it was really cute....we were at our house in Ruston. Then we put the twins to bed and then we out. I'm not sure if I knew someone was coming over or not, but I wasn't worried about them so I'm assuming I did. Anyway....we're driving and acting all nutty and taking pictures in the car and I tell Michael that it's getting late and we need to head home because I have to go to work in the morning. Michael was all for it, so we start heading home. I look out of the window and realize we're in Natchez (we were turning down the road that had Lil Angels Daycare on it....and leads right in front of The Donut Shop). So I start SCREAMING! Michael starts freaking out! We had NO idea we were in Natchez!! I told Michael I was very worried about the twins being at home without us close by and that there was no way I was going to make it back in time to get enough sleep for work in the morning. A few minutes later (remember I live nearly 3 hours from Natchez) we were driving into our driveway in Ruston...we pull up and I bolt inside to check on the twins...the lights are on and the twins are in cribs (we switched them to toddler beds about 4 months ago) and my mom was laying on a bed just watching them while they played.

I was confused as to why my mom was there, terrified that the twins were alone or too far away, and ticked that my mom was sitting in the room with the lights on when they should have been sleeping....

My dreams are very weird...this was a toned down version but still pretty weird. lol

holidays

When I was pregnant every time a holiday...no matter how obscure...I thought "next year I can celebrate that with the twins or next year we can celebrate that because the twins will be here". Then their 1st year we did celebrate a lot of random things and we went over the top on everything. My brother, sister, and sister-in-law all got presents for 'National Aunt and Uncle Day' and my parents got 'Grandparent's Day' shirts....we celebrated the day the twins came home from the NICU (after a 7 week (48 day) stay). We celebrated the anniversary of them being released by going back to the NICU and seeing the nurses...We threw a HUGE 1st birthday party...literally 50 + people were there! On top of that, we took a posed picture for every month 'birthday'...they were in the NICU for their 1st and 2nd month birthdays and I remember driving the hour and 15 minute drive late at night just to be there for their 'birthday'. 

Then they turned 2...their birthday was in joint with their great-grandma (Gram) who turned 70, their grandma (Grandma) who turned 50, and their aunt (Aunty Courtney) who turned 18 with just some family and a couple of friends came and went because we took a trip to my mom's house. We didn't even acknowledge Grandparents day (because I totally forgot), Easter was bigger than last year just because we can do more, but I just realized I didn't even remember about their NICU release anniversary...that was such a major day for us and I didn't even remember...2 short years later!! and...I totally forgot about their 'month birthday'...which is INSANE since for the past 2 years I've done that every month. 

What happened? Why when they were infants/babies I remembered every holiday and every anniversary and announced to the world these moments but now that they are 'kids' I don't remember. 

I wonder if it's because I'm comfortable in this role. I don't feel the need to remind myself that my brother, sister, and SIL are aunts and an uncle...I don't need to remind my parents that they are grandparents....I don't need to remind myself about when the twins' were finally able to come home...because those moments are in the past...they are and will forever be the twins' aunts and uncle and grandparents and as much as it's nice to acknowledge those things...I don't feel as though I HAVE to remember. I don't have to relive the memories of not having my children at home and the feeling of happiness/dread/worry/anxiety of having 2 newborns at home! 

I love this comfort level...where I don't feel like I'm always trying to one up someone or trying to remind myself of my new role. I love being and knowing I'm being a mom...everyday.

Easter Sunday (2011)

So, as I was sitting on my bed watching my energetic 2-year old daughter giggling and laughing with her daddy...I thought it was high time I actually get and keep this blog going. The twins are starting to say SO much that I can't bear to not have it written down somewhere. So....here it goes...

Today was Easter Sunday...this is the first year the twins were really excited about the whole ordeal....this is their 3rd Easter...

We had baskets this morning and then an egg hunt later in the yard and they thought it was so cool they could eat candy all day and destroy the house and we didn't say a word. It was amazing to see them so happy...we can't do it everyday, but it was awesome nonetheless.

Once they hit 2 (almost 2 months ago) they have spoken in complete sentences...they keep talking better and better every day...every moment. It's incredible and brings a HUGE smile to my face. They have an amazing vocabulary and wonderful reasoning and language skills.

Today Leon was on top of my trunk and Michael told him to get down...when he didn't Michael laughed and said 'get down and I'll give you a cookie'...Leon looked at Michael and said 'NO! I want a drink'...we had to explain to Leon that it was just too late for that. Later Delilah asked for something to drink and we had to explain the whole thing over again. lol It was incredible to me that they were asking for things to drink!

They are growing up before my eyes and it's amazing! I love those two crazy monsters more than I could ever put into simple words and to see them learn, grow, and understand is INCREDIBLE. (I realize I keep saying that but they keep me amazed.) I think part of this amazement is knowing 1. how hard they worked to get here and 2. how far advanced they are.

They have had a specialist come to our house everyday for the past year. She left at the end of February because she went on maternity leave...we then got a speech therapist for the remainder of the time before their evaluation....where they were deemed 'too advanced for the program'....very sad/happy moment for me. I cried knowing I was probably never going to see our amazing specialist but so happy knowing they had worked so hard and had accomplished so much. (At 15 months old, Delilah tested at 9 months and Leon tested at 12 months...they were only allowed to test no less than 13 months to still be within their normal range...that scared me more than I can ever say...but then we kicked all that in the butt and not only because 'normal' but surpassed it!)

Sorry if this first post is a little spazzing...I'll try controlling it better next time. :)